Libraries are nice...

 September, 14, 2010



 So I have decided to start this blog while in the library skipping class and hiding from my mom (skipping because I don't feel well, hiding because I don't want Mom to bitch at me). Beside me are my Oh Important Thoughts Journal, Llewellyn's 2011 Herbal Almanac, and Llewellyn's 2011 Magical Almanac. My dumb ass can't get to my 2010 one because it's my house that I can't get to because someone else is living in it (loooong story short, in my parents' house while I was unemployed, now I have a job and their friend is staying in my house). It's mildly annoying because I wanted to know tonight's moon sign as I will be star gazing tonight. Last night I found the perfect spot, not too far from the house so easy on the gas but secluded enough I won't be disturbed to do some Craft. I am not allowed to practice in my parents' home because a) Dad doesn't know my religion and b) Mom who does asked me not to. I swear, if I was Jewish this wouldn't be a problem I could worship there all I wanted. Hypocrisy from my loved ones, always making my life more difficult. It's so terrible to have to hide and hide and hide. I am not ashamed of myself or my religion, don't get me wrong, I'm pagan and I'm proud to be. However, I also am a follower of the tenant "Do whatever you will, but harm none". To reveal myself to my parents and extended family would hurt them and me greatly, so I stay quiet. It hurts me to stay quiet, too, but I love my family, and if the sole fault they have is pot smoking and the inability to accept my religion, so be it. Soon, I'll be back in my house, worshiping as I will.

... I just have to figure out how and where to do it in the mean time....